Finding my passion (someday)

The other day I was listening to the Joe Rogan Experience. It’s his podcast he hosts on Spotify, among other places, and I really enjoyed it. His guest was Adam Sandler. I’ve always liked Adam Sandler and his movies. I enjoy the different characters he creates and becomes. I find it interesting and insanely loyal that he keeps working with his friends and hires the same people over and over again. I also find it incredible that his movies are still so great even though they have the same cast in them. Anyway, he’s great and it was a really good episode. 

Throughout the episode they stuck to one topic: comedy. They both love doing stand up comedy and comedy in general. They spoke so passionately about it I could feel their love for their craft just by listening. It was inspiring to me, but also really sad because I came to the realization that I don’t have something in my life like that. I don’t have that one thing I’m crazy passionate about. That one thing that I’d do anything to achieve or become. That one thing that is constantly on my mind and I’m obsessed with. Yes, hearing them talk was inspiring but it is sad for me, and those like me, who don’t know what they want. I have too many interests and I can never choose which one I want to go all-in on. Which one I want to take a deep-dive into and learn everything about. Which one I want to turn into a career. Well, it’s a little late for some of them anyways. 

I’ve said it many times on this blog but I wish I realized how much I enjoyed writing when I was younger. I wish I realized this when I was picking my major at Indiana State. I could have taken more classes, I could have majored in English or Communication. Something to do with writing. Writing is one of my many interests and I think I could have turned it into some sort of career if I had just realized it earlier in life. I believe writing could have been my deep-dive. I told Lea earlier today I think I could have made a good journalist. If I had studied it and learned the craft earlier in life. I also mentioned that I’m in disbelief I didn’t think about it earlier in life as a career path because of how much I love Superman and his alter-ego Clark Kent, who is an investigative journalist lol. Looking back I feel so dumb because I enjoy writing, I enjoy asking questions (hence my interview section), and I enjoy investigations. I probably could have been an investigative journalist or something, but I guess we’ll never know. 

Anyway, I was listening to that episode and it got me thinking “what am I passionate about?” and I realized the answer was nothing (at the moment anyways). I realized I had many interests but never many passions. Maybe that will change some day. It’s pretty cool though, when you think about it, how listening to people who are so crazy in love with what they do can inspire you to think about what you want to do, or should have done, with your life and/or career. 

Maybe some day I’ll figure it out. For now I have to do what’s best for my family, and that’s to continue doing what I’m doing. 

Thanks for listening to me vent.

Peter