Letting Go of Old Interests

Hello readers! Today I wanted to discuss some things I’ve noticed about myself lately. I don’t know why I am suddenly reflecting so much on my life in recent weeks, but it certainly isn’t a bad thing to do. Actually, I enjoy it. It helps me get to know me better. I feel like I am finally realizing I don’t have to be the person I have always been. I can change. Change is good and I think I am going to try to do this regularly. Not every week, but after I do some deep diving into my mind, if I find something in myself that is new and changing I will share it.

Recently, I have discovered I am no longer interested in things I have loved and enjoyed for years. For instance, I had a fascination with the paranormal: aliens, the men in black, ghostly encounters, etc. It was all so interesting to me. I loved listening to Jim Harold’s Campfire or Coast to Coast AM (the old Art Bell episodes). They gave me such a thrill and I was truly interested in all of the topics covered on those programs. Then one day I thought to myself, “I haven’t listened to these shows in over a year. Am I really still interested in this stuff?” That is what got me thinking. I don’t know what happened, but one day within the last year or so, I just lost interest. Stopped listening. Put my mind and energy elsewhere. I also realzied my views on these subjects changed as well. For example, I started feeling uneasy with the topic of aliens in a way I hadn’t felt before. Are they really “strange visitors from other planets? Or something more sinister lurking from a realm we cannot see. Maybe it’s because I have been trying to be closer to God. I have been trying to deepen my faith and I assume this is the driving force behind this change. The more I pray and read scripture or quotes from the Saints, the more my perspective on the paranormal subject changes. This is just one thing I’ve noticed recently.

I have also felt a change when it comes to comics. I used to love reading comics. I even had a tab on this website called DC Comics, where I would discuss the comics I was reading and the new DCU movies coming out. Now, I haven’t picked up a comic to read in over a year. I still love Superman, that will never change, and I am still very excited about the future of the DC movie universe, but something changed in me. It doesn’t get me excited like it used to. I have no thoughts on why this change happened, but I’m glad I noticed it did. Now I can start focusing on other things that have been grabbing my interest lately, like reading [other types of] books and writing in my journal and blogging. Writing and blogging have always been an interest of mine, but sometimes I “put it on the shelf” for a while when life gets too busy. When I pick up the pen again, or open my laptop to write a post on here, the excitement comes flooding back into me. That’s the feeling I love, and that’s the feeling I haven’t been getting in regards to the paranormal and comics.

Lastly, I have realized I have been consuming too much negative media. So, yesterday, I deleted my X (formerly Twitter) account. There are too many negative comments and people on that website, and it is so addicting to scroll endlessly and consume the filth that spews out of people’s fingers all over the world. I couldn’t take it anymore and once I realized how much I actually use that app, I was disgusted with myself. Before I could even give it a second thought I deleted the account and the app off my phone and was done with it. I’m really glad I did that.

I don’t know if these changes are due to maturity, faith, or just a new season in life, but I feel different. I feel like I am growing and becoming a new person.

Have you noticed anything different about yourselves? Any old passion or interest that doesn’t feel the same anymore? Let me know!

Peter